Sunday, July 25, 2004
*nurul
sighh. di's sick. she was down wif very bad flu yesterdae already. and i guess todae it got worse. =/ take care alrite... i got no one to talk to nemore. only you. so u must get better! and u're my only study partner. the others all either haf tuition todae or dey live too far away. =/ sighh. i need u di!!!! hurry up get well. heh.
totally gonna haf a retarded dae todae. was looking forward to meeting di and studying our asses off. but she's sick. oh wells. stuck at home. but going out to eat lunch wif daddddie dearest later. mom's getting on our nerves. and she keeps blasting at me for no apparent reason. dad told her to keep quiet cuz she's just ranting for no reason and i totally din do anithing wrong. -giggles- den mom had this look of horror. hahahax.
after dat dey're going out and i'm gonna sit at home and study. damn i need someone to be dere when i'm doing maths. gahhhh. if i dunnoo how to do, how do i go on??? nothing to refer to la pls. maths is so unlike any other subject. tsk tsk.
sighh. sometimes i feel like as dou pple talk to me, its cuz dey haf no choice. dat dey haf no one else to talk to newae. so i'm just like a replacement. a substitute. and like i'm invisible. felt totally invisible yesterdae. if not for candice pulling me around. think i wld haf just walked off and no one wld realise? hurhur. but it got better la.
cuz of all dat has been happening around me. i realise dat i live in such an unhappy world. nothing dat i want to go right will go right. nothing dat i want ever stays. nothing is forever. i noe. but now i realise dat forever is nothing. dere are so much conflicts going around. unhappy people roaming the earth. i feel unhappy outside. i feel unhappy inside. i feel unhappy at home. i feel unhappy when i'm out. gahhh. i wanna be happy. dammit. the only thing dat is looking up for me is studies. and considering dat Os are near, its good dat my studies are looking up. right? righttttt. hahahax. i'm answering my own questions now. blearghh.
mom's ranting again. for no apparent reason again. sighh. over and out.